So sorry you're having a tough time. I'm a functioning drunk too. I have had a lot of close calls, drinking and driving, blackouts etc, but I always survived. I think that was blind luck and just God taking care of me.

Right now laziness is the only thing that stops me. I am too lazy to go to the store and buy alcohol. But I totally understand where you are coming from. I used to have vodka for breakfast too when I was younger, so I know what it feels like to want that morning drink.

The detox may be a good idea. You may have built up a tolerance in your system for the alcohol, and your body may be so used to it, it can't be without it.

But good question though.