It sounds like you're in the process of healing. Perhaps PC has allowed you a safe enough place to express those issues safely?

I've been to "other places" and find PC is still the most civil (other than in a designated Christian-only forum) place around. Other places tend to overlook acting out and attacks on others, and in fact, often have unstable moderators who lead the band!

Yes, there are those who are here that do attack others--some on purpose (they don't last long at that level) and most because of their own disorders. But, like you, we realize that some days are worse than others, and as long as you come back up for air and play nice again, we're still friends.