I know that's got to be hard. I also have BPD and I know my kids have gone thru a lot because of it. I agree with payne1 on the book; I was surprised to find so much out there on the topic. Find out as much as you can, and remember: give yourself a break and be patient with yourself. Dealing with anyone with BPD is hard, but I would think its especially hard when it's your parent.