for dcs no1 fan....
you wrote about how for a while there you were doing really well, eating loads, and not feeling bad about what you were eating..focus on that positive, try to forsee what was working then, then re-create what was working..you deserve PRAISE for doing so much better for so long..if you really dont feel comfortable talking to your husband and your friend isnt available right away think of us here at psychcentral as friends to confide in.....write us again & let us know how you are....what normally helps you? what relaxes you? we care.......