I've been with my boyfriend for three years, we see eachother almost every day and have for almost the entire three years..there's no problems what so ever.
I'm graduating this December and have one of the only chances I've had since 2009 (graduating high school) to go to a school far away and start a new life there. I'm going to have to take a massive loan anyway to pay for grad school so that should hold me over in a place until I find a job there. The thing is...he just won't make that leap with me. He hates change. The military is paying for his school so it's not like he has to get any money if he comes with me. He can go to school anywhere. He can find a job. He just...won't.
He keeps telling me how it costs so much to move and it's not logical and it'll happen someday but I can't rush it.
I wish I could make him understand how painful it is to live here. To have to walk past the places my best friend and I spent our entire lives in...every single day I have to walk past the park where her life was taken.
I could make it happen for us if he was just open to anything different or risky.
I know people will say just go yourself but you'll have to understand my severe anxiety would not allow that. I have so much difficulty going places alone, I could never do it on my own. He's the one for me and I won't just up and leave him to go some where else when I can do the same degree here.
I just thought maybe I deserved a fresh start..
and now I'm crying over this like a big baby, I apologize for whining so much.