I'm so very sorry. I know how you feel. I have been there sooo many times, I couldn't possibly count them all.
I am doing better, but like you, I have bad dreams every night, all night long, that is when I can sleep. Heck, it's two thirty in the afternoon and I still have my PJ'S on. I don't have the energy to even get dressed.
I do hope the new meds will help you. Don't feel bad, as there are alot of us, just like you.
Take care,
Linda