{{{Selost}}} i have been thru a little bit of what you describe, enough to be dysfunctional and suicidal... people say "therapy" like it's a cure or a fix, for what is essentially a Brain Chemistry Disorder. talking doesn't help it, or i would have been cured years earlier~!

what i did find helped some others were various psych meds, like Wellbutrin, and some others, you will find no dearth of med talk around here. that didn't help me. i finally found some relief through Acupuncture~! it sounds weird, but it did help my brain begin to re-balance, and i saw relief from OCD's Right Away~!~
originally i went for smoking cessation, and i stopped in one day, but then i noticed that i was free to walk out under the open sky, which i had not been able to do for over a decade, almost 15 yrs~! and other things, like food phobias gradually receded~

to maintain and enhance this re-balancing of my brain functions, i was referred to an auditory brain repair system called Holosync. it is only offered in the therapeutic format at CenterPointe.com. a lot of people are discouraged by the blatant snake oil sales promotion at the site, and he does get many people to buy things they can't use and don't work, in my opinion. BUT he built the business on the one thing that does work~!

discovered in the early '80's and used with ADD adolescents, the holosync method feeds divergent beats into the brain via stereo ear phones, and this causes the two sides of the brain to try to reconcile the different input, by reconnecting and even regrowing neural connections across the menegial tissue (in the middle of the brain). it is astonishingly effective~! i have "recovered" from bipolar disorder, OCD, Panic, Phobias, and worst of all, Suicidal Thought Disorder.

i hope you will give some thought to trying either or both of the above, i hope you can afford them since they are not covered by most insurances. i wish you a speedy and complete recovery. for me that was about 5 yrs better than a lifetime of suffering~!