I don't remember who or what or where, or I'd bring the post back up, but awhile back somebody posted about being a "survivor" and her (pretty sure it was a her! LOL I could be wrong) dislike of the word. While I am in fact a survivor of abuse, my question is more general than that.

I have had a lot of stuff go wrong in my life. Not just the abuse, but life has thrown me what seems to me to be more than my share of curveballs.

I had my 2nd appt. with a new T today. (Check the therapy forum later for how THAT went if you're ready for a major rant!) She looked over my intake form, and we chatted about a few things, and at one point she said, "Wow! You've been through a lot of stuff! You're a survivor!"

I smiled weakly and changed the subject, because I, too, hate that word. As far as I'm concerned, I haven't survived a thing, or I wouldn't be the freaking nutjob that I am and entering my second DECADE of therapy. It didn't kill me, but it didn't make me stronger, either -- I simply lived through it. Scarred, battered, broken, and considerably the worse for wear, I am still walking around the planet, but I haven't survived a damn thing. My only accomplishment is continuing to breathe in and out on a regular basis (whether I like it or not).

I guess I'd like to hear other people's takes on this. Do you feel like you have triumphed over the bad things in your life, or like they just kind of happened to you, and you did what you had to do to get through it, and then just moved on, waiting for the next bad thing to happen? I feel like there is absolutely nothing triumphant about my life. I just woke up every day and dealt with what I got handed, because that's what you have to do to get through life.

Just curious...

Candy