Gawd, I am such a coward for not telling T about the SH I have been doing. Although I did tell her I need to learn/relearn coping skills for when I get the urges to hurt myself, but she glossed right over that and now I have to figure out the secondary gains I get from sabotaging my recovery. How the hell is that supposed to help me? I got really really frustrated with the session and felt like I had wasted it on pointless ****. So I SH'ed today...UGH!