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Why is it that you do not want to get a new treatment team?

You are not being helped. This is a simple example.
It is hard to change T's, but there are people trained in working with your issues. SH is not uncommon today.

You need to take control of your own destiny and find someone who is trained to work with your problems. Many people have to spend months looking for the "right" T.

You also need to take control and work on changing behaviors.
It is hard, but your statement under your name "that you want to SI more and not be forbid for doing it" shows that maybe you don't want to work on change.