I only have read one of your recent post and you definitely sounded like you were on the road to mania to me. I don't know if Geodon can be used PRn. you really need to sit down and talk to your pdoc. it doesn't take a load of meds to balance out bipolar. I am only on Geodon and Topamax and I am high functioning, work full time and go to grad school. I have been stable for quite some time now. you don't have to be totally drugged up to be stable. there are just a few meds that will do the job with minimal to no side effects. you just have to be patient, have a patient pdoc who is willing to try new things for you. best of luck.