When I've been in episodes like yours, my pdoc called it mania or mixed mania.

I suggested asking your pdoc about Geodon because it shouldn't put weight on you or make you feel "drugged". It does need to be taken regularly to be of the most benefit, although I've heard of it being used on a short-term basis to get through a mood episode and then being discontinued once one's been stable for a few months.

Believe me, being on an AP isn't the worst thing in the world, although it sure seemed when I first started on one. I was VERY reluctant to try this class of meds in the beginning, but mine is literally the glue that's holding me together and keeping me on an even keel (now that I've quit playing with the dosage ).