Maybe it's hard not just because everything seems to have done a full 180 without me even noticing
But because its all written in the third person, I wonder if part of my brain can't accept that all the "She... blah blah blah" is actually about me, It feels like none of this information isn't meant for me to see but then why send it to me?

Gah! Im in full rambling mode tonight, going to bed to sleep on it all