CG - it's a big problem for you, and that's all that matters - it's your life, and it's your problem, and there's nothing to gain from comparing it to others. We each have things that are incredibly stressful and significant to us that others would find really simple.

Like - I can stand on a stage and run an event as the MC. That's not a problem for me, at all, but for others they would freeze on stage and freak right out. On the other hand - I can't handle someone just giving me a hug when they can tell I'm sad.

For you, right now, that's the idea of meds and how to treat yourself. That's currently the issue you are struggling with and that's a perfectly valid thing to debate about.