I wasn't happy, I knew deep down we weren't making it. I didn't want to break up with him but I didn't want to be with him either, I cried myself to sleep because I didn't know what to do. I wound up meeting someone I was interested in and broke up with my bf, even though I don't want to be with this guy either bc I just don't want relationships anymore. Now I am still miserable anyway and I want my ex to just disappear. I wish he never happened. I have to see him at work and with this new stupid chic he's with and I just can't deal with it. This and other things going on.... Honestly I just want to go to sleep and not wake up.
I am not suicidal. Promise.
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