so I don't really feel as though i am abusing anything right now...but I know I need to be careful when I do drink cause i can easily go too far.

Last night I went out and drank and got drunk for the first time in a while and it was fine. I didn't feel too poorly about that.

but tonight I am dealing with some stressful situations and I opened up a can of beer from my basement freg. I don't intend to have any more then this...so I am moderating myself.

but I have a sense of guilt about it since I am using it to clam my nerves. I think I am working with the knowledge that I know this has been an issue for me in the past and I am trying very hard to just be mindful of that and not lose I guess the sense of control.