Thanks so much everyone. I did talk with my T today and she says that it will come out in time and when I am ready to deal with it. She said that the reason I internalize so much and take it out on myself is because of my past. I was taught that lashing out was not appropriate, but was never taught another way of dealing.
I am going to take your suggestions and try them out.
Thanks again. It means a lot to know that you all care so much.