Hi - I am new to this and have been reading many of the postings and am glad there is a place to "chat" with others. For the longest time I thought I was the only person in the world that felt alone and miserable. My story starts many years ago and could fill a warehouse, but I will try to get to the heart of the issue. Two years ago, I suffered a seizure and the doctor was unable to diagnose the problem, he thought I was crazy, until I had another seizure, consequently, I was given many drugs that made me loopy all the time. Then someone took advantage of that situation and raped me. Some so called friends, said I should have known better and not taken the drugs, yet I was only doing what the doctor stated. (Is this called "practicing" medicine) Needless to say, I have gone through many "DOWNS" and not so many "UPS". Certain things set me off in a downward spiral and I don't know how to correct it, and then I just crawl deeper and deeper into a hole.. I used to be a very outgoing individual and loved doing things, now I just want to stay away from everyone and hide. I am currently in a relationship, but I am shrinking away. I don't know what to do or how to come back, does anyone have any suggestions, or do I give up now. Thanks for listening.

CJ

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