So sorry that this is how you've felt. I can definitely relate to that feeling of non-resolution after so much turbulence. Writing at least would seem to give you that piece of mind. I so badly want to dive into poetry and express all of this. But then I start over-thinking. Guess the only way to do it is to start.

Well-composed and expressed. I also like that, visually, as a whole your poem looks like waves. Thank you for sharing this, GeorgiaGirl.