I recently said some thing I regretted. People thought it gave them an excuse to take away my power over myself. I took my power back.

Suicide is a bad way to take final, chilling control over a situation that you might have some control over if you tried other ways to work.

Parents worry about their kids, and now you've given a reason for worry. I like it that you claim that as your mistake andtheir worry as a natural reaction. Thatmeans you still controlled events, even though you made a mistake in tactics.

My son coached me on ways to behave that would convince people not to worry about me, and i love him for it.

I guess iwonder most what you want us to take away from what you arre telling us. After all, we can't control you at all, so it's safe to be open with us.