Thanks Yeah I suspect I have PPMD, I dont really care what label it has, I just want it treated. I have enough labels on me already.

I have been doing a lot of research today but I was hoping for personal stories of what worked for people. I dont see my pdoc for another week and GPs have suggested the Mirena but it is very hard to organise for me since I havent had children and will need to go under to have it done. It is also a risk for me to get it due to other medical conditions so Im not really sure if it is the answer.

EmilysZoo thanks for your reply, I am in my late 20s and I have never had children, nor do I plan to. The last cycle I kept practicing relaxation and telling myself this would pass but I was still fighting off urges to hurt myself and due to suicidal tendancies I need to get this under control. I work so hard the rest of the month at keeping everything stable and then that night hits and I feel as if all that work has been for nothing because I end up sick again. It usually takes me a few days to recover and try and clean up the mess I make when it hits.

It is so very disruptive to my life and I really have had enough. I cant see myself getting through another cycle without causing havoc in my life.