The one thing I did realize after my incident is that I still needed help and I still had to reach out for help. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but it needed to be done and I'm glad I did. I had a help line from work as a benefit and they listened and started me with a woman T after explaining what happened. I felt very threatened by going to anyone male, who could judge me and "ask me for my man card back" so to speak. Hope this helps!