So my hospitalisation bill just came and I went over the limit of my "insurance." Blame the first day for being expensive due to the lab tests... now I have to take out money from my own pocket and my mom is footing half of it. Feeling really guilty now and it doesn't help at all. Vicious cycle

Sometimes I feel like I am wasting money on these things.. that treatment is supposed to be for physical stuff and physical stuff only.

So overall, not good. Back in a crisis and I really want to end it all...