I've been doing OK or So I thought....
Until Recently....

My Fiance never goes anywhere without me. But he has two Business opportunities coming up that are requiring him to go on two trips. To Amsterdam & Abu Dhabi.

They are REAL opportunities to make alot of money so I totally get why he has to explore them. But I am losing my mind with abandonment fears.

Before these trips came up we have been fighting NON stop about other things. I threaten to break up with him almost weekly.

I push and push and I guess he's finally had enough. Now he says he's done being treated like this and he's going on these trips no matter what.

I feel my WORST fear. Rejection. Abandonment.

The pain is so deep. I feel myself spiraling back to that dark spot. This is what happened with us two years ago. He promised me, my Dr's & my family he would take care of me no matter what and always be there for me. He said he understood my BPD.

I need advice and support on how to handle him leaving. Weather we stay together or break up it's going to be AWFUL. Unbearable.