for the first time in my 20 years of treatment I am clearly distrustful of all doctors for more than just a minute a time. I've been a good patient at Kaiser (HMO) but they didn't let me have access to groups and outpatient care until Iwas too troubled for that level andhad to wait to go to the next.

It turns ouit my Psychiatrist made a rook error on my meds and I have to wait out a medication change.

In the middle ofthat, I kept reporting symptoms and, when they were misinterpreted, I kept on being candid. Now I don't know if I can bring myselfto be open and self-revealing as I have always been.