Sometimes I feel like you, nothing seems to make it any better. I do know I have had good times in the past, but it has been so long, if feel like giving up. After as many meds as I've tried I'm afraid ECT will come as a solution soon. I don't know if I can agree to that. That may be when I call it quits as far as looking for a solution. I don't know that I can go there. Best of luck to you.