I have no idea where to even begin. Dx with depression and type one bipolar, for many years, and things do not seem to be getting better. My weekends are the worst and find my self more suicidal on these days. If it weren't for my kids, I would have gone a long time ago. But even then, all the medication I am on (which DOES NOT work) I feel flat. I feel like I cant even love my husband or my own kids. I am cold hearted and do not even want to be hugged or kissed. My husband tries his best, but doesnt know how to help. I'm yelling, I'm irritable and just feel there is no hope for me, to become happy.