I was just about finished writing a reply, and my computer did something strange, and it is gone. The gist of it is that, Alexandra, you understand me very well. I would, and probably have, say the same things to someone else in my situation, but I don't expect better for myself. I am hoping for things to change with my T as she has had a break and we are changing over to f2f rather than online (which I talked her into trying and I don't think she liked very well). At the least, I want to end on a better note, but I will keep the option open of finding someone else.

I have had the same concerns that you raise, about countertransference and burnout, but focusing there wasn't helpful. I'm supposed to focus on myself, not on T - she says it is not about her. She is able to set boundaries, and my boundaries are more in question.

Linehan's book has been on my wish list for some time. I have gotten it from the library before, but didn't have enough time to read it thoroughly. Time and money are issues, but maybe they won't be for much longer.

Thank you for your insight and for the time and effort that you put into this. I understand that you are a student, right? Do you read psych books for fun and/or personal interest, or is that what you are studying too? I think that you show a lot of promise.

Rap