I feel like such a fake person. I pretend to be this woman who is strong and full of self-confidence, but the truth is I'm a weak insecure woman. I'm one of those people who look like they have it all together from the OUTSIDE, but behind closed doors I'm a mess. I've been in and out of therapy for years so I've pretty much figured out where my low self-esteem stems from, but I still haven't figured out a way to conquer it. I find my low self-esteem or lack of manifests itself most in the way of relationships, both romantic and friendships. Simply put I choose toxic and unhealthy people to be in my life. Part of me wonders if I do this as a way to boost my own self-esteem - like I'm the one who has it together vs. these "losers" I place in my life. But, most therapists have told me I choose these people b/c I don't think I deserve better and I can't deny that. And I'm also familiar with the saying that no one can love you until you love yourself. I just want to start to at least like myself. How do you start seeing the positive things in yourself when you feel so worthless?