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Old Sep 24, 2013, 04:23 PM
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So I was diagnosed with Bipolar (Hypomanic) not that long ago. Was told this many years ago but was "confirmed" with current therapist.

Anyways, life has been good, calm and stable for the last few weeks. I feel like my depression is moving away now (the reason I started therapy) and while I had a hypomanic episode like a month ago ( I know it was hypomanic now but didn't until T pointed it out) I haven't been noticeably hyper since. I generally don't even acknowledge myself as "bipolar".

I've been going through some T issues, and considering a break. Well we talked about how i've been feeling pleasant lately - been reacting to things calmly, haven't been si'ing for like two weeks, etc. and T asked

"...well the test showed you were bipolar blah blah blah. Is it possible that this good mood you're in is part of a hypomanic episode?"

Naturally, I was like ".........No. I'm actually feeling less unstable, and more baseline."

She moved on from the subject but now my mind is racing with even more questions.

As a T - shouldn't she know the difference? Am I assuming because I'm not having a "self proclaimed hyper moment" that i'm not hypomanic? Can you be hypomanic and stable? Being bipolar - is it possible for you to be not depressed, not manic just freaking normal? Am I unaware that i'm "hypomanic" and "impulsively" (as opposed to really) want to take a break from therapy? She planted a bad seed in my head (unintentionally im sure - i think ).

I guess I just want to know is it possible to not be hypomanic OR depressed - just content with life, even if its not really that often?
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