You were abused! It doesn't matter what age your abuser was, you were abused in every sense of the word! I'm so sorry you had to experience all that, especially at such a young age. Don't think that you can't get through this. You don't have to feel this way forever. Have you talked to a doctor about this yet? If not, I strongly urge you to go and get referred to a therapist.

I'm so sorry you've experienced all of this! I hope for the best outcome possible with you!