{{{{{{tiodlliwi}}}}}} Ohh Hon, I feel so much for you. I haven't had an affair, but there are other things that make me feel guilty ALL THE TIME and I think Fayeody has some really great points there.
Anxiety is a nasty thing and shame and guilt seem to be the eternal companions.
But let me tell you, you are not alone.
Even though it must be really hard to see the light right now, have hope that you'll find your path to feel better about yourself.
PM me anytime and don't be so hard on yourself, breath or go for a walk instead of staying home after work, that might help to clear your mind up~