Well i had always called him. I always remembered his B'day without storing it anywhere. I always call him on any day which is important for him. but he never calls back, except for one occasion when he was not there when i called and he called me later.

As i said, i never had close relations with his family, his parents are mostly selfish, ignorant and narcissist. We met for first time (he was 6) was a coincidence, he accepted me out of blue from all people around him, used to jump around me for 3 weeks, so i developed affection for him.

Now our families are broke, we don't have any communication with each other. I miss him but at same time, after the attitude of his family and how selfish they are, i doubt if all that time was fake, and is he/or would become like his family.

I don't have any way of communicating with him without passing through his parents. He can communicate with me but he didn't. It's almost 11 months since we talked last. I don't even know if he misses me, but i do. I met him last when he was 11, and we had good time together. I had tried a lot not to think of him but can't forget that good time.

I feel like being used. All my other cousins are just like that, he was my closest. I am alone in this foreign country, so i do miss all love here, which he might be getting here as he was born here and his family lives here.

Thanks