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Originally Posted by summer1991
Like yourself, I want to please others as well, and dislike being the one to tell someone what and what not to do.
I was not presented with a probationary period, as you stated.
Stepping down within the company is not something I am interested - I feel I need to leave the company.
I really like your suggestions for starting below management through a different employer. It is a great legitimate reason for stepping back. Thank you for pointing this out.
The work I bring home are the stresses of my job. All I can think about is what I did that day at my job, what I should have done differently, what I forgot to do, what I should not have said, what I will need to do the next, and how much I do not want to do those things. I am worried that I will not be able to do all that needs to be done, and that I will not complete my tasks in a perfect manner.
Thank you very much for your response, healingme4me! I hope all is well with you.
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All is well, thanks for asking. Well, there's some managerial stuff, that I am trying hard to deal with, as far as a subordinate. With my educational background, and previous management experience, I feel like I'm in a specific movie, 'you're my only hope....' ;-) type of thing, dealing with this specific one.
But, alas, that bolded sentence, reminded me of something. Completing things, perfectly. I used to feel that way, in my previous management experience. I was young, ill equipped in some ways, and in trying to reach someone elses unrealistic expectations, I felt I was becoming frozen in my tracks. (such as why is there such LOS of inventory, in a high-risk demographic, and why didn't I have answers, never mind the cops found loads of that inventory under a nearby bridge. hmmm...being asked to answer, the obvious wouldn't suit that boss. as though a rookie manager could possibly sleuth and solve what the previous, non-rookie manager, himself couldn't solve!)
About perfection, today, one of my bosses, worked in my location. And made a not-quite-so-big error, but enough, that I had all I could do to grin a big grin. We chuckled, I said, jovially, you cannot work in this location, without making that particular error, at least once. Even, bigger bosses make errors.
Not the type, that had a huge impact, but it was bonding. She seemed, to enjoy working 'for' me, today
It's one of those things, that no matter where you go, there you are. Resolving the worrying about perfection, lest you are an airline pilot or work in an airport tower, or something like that, where perfection matters, more than anything else...lest that's the type of job, being able to forgive yourself for just being human, matters!
There's a new rookie manager, in my area. And I've heard how stressed and unhappy she's become. She's the type of person that wants to please all of those around her. Trying to please the same crowd, she and I, so to speak. What's more important, than being 'perfect', I've learned from my boss' reactions to my performance, is the ability, to just own up to what wasn't perfect.
I had something, happen, first week, on my job. Instead of bowing my head, in shame, I was in the next day, early, speaking with a particular technician. And was able to exonerate myself, from what was 'assumed' to have happened, with a very technically detailed letter, that explained, specifically what really did happen.. Glad I spoke to that tech, I actually, did type up a resignation letter.
Becoming management, doesn't happen in a vacuum. Sometimes, it takes classes on top of real life experience.
