Hello, linzbug4ever.
Hope you will find things to improve at some point. There are more PC members than I who have experienced similar challenges.
I found the Distractions forums in the Games forums helped me work through the difficult times. And I enjoyed some moment away from darker thoughts into the light of the smoother days. Hope one of us PC members can give you the feedback to lighten your load.
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I get fed, don't worry.

(Buddy putting in his 2bits worth)