Thanks for all the kind thoughts and opinions. Venus, that is a very good point that I daydream because I'm dissatisfied with my life. The only problem is that I can't get a life I'm satisfied with, because I spend too much time daydreaming! lol

The past few days have actually been fairly good, productivity-wise. I felt for a few hours that maybe I could be the woman I want to be-the one who is constantly doing important things and is always on the go. I got really angry yesterday at my life and all the obstacles in my way and the fact that I'm not strong enough to overcome them...then I went to the gym and took out all that rageful energy on an exercise bike. I haven't exercised in over a year, but I think that I should make it more of a priority. Maybe if I could control my body would gain more control over my life.

I submitted my application for medical school yesterday, so my life does have purpose. I'm just so scared that I'll just barely get through med school, and then I'll be the kind of doctor who isn't passionate about medicine, who doesn't give 110% to her patients like they deserve.

Thanks for listening!