Honestly if you trust her, turn over your SI kit, even if you end up hurt yourself other ways, but honestly I'd ask how well she knows about SI before making the decision. I think she's trying to make you symbolize how much you want help and how much faith your putting into therapy w her. I think it's a sucky, manipulative, power struggle and dangerous thing she's doing. I'm hoping you have a trusting relationship with her even to suggest that. Even though I only SI when severely manic now, I still have my kit around. I'd give it to T but she has never asked and wouldn't do that to our relationship. As for how to stop for me it was a mixture of things, bettering my situation, ed voice gone, absolutely no time, and other things.