Depression might be part of the motivation factor... Two years ago I went and saw a professional for severe depression that was bordering on clinical. It has been easier since then but I still struggle now and again. I feel that I can function day by day, it's even fairly easy to feel pretty well about most of the days. I still have to deal with strong anxiety that stalls my decision-making process and cope with automatic negative thoughts, negative thought patterns, and generally low energy. Sometimes I'll do something 'easier' before doing school work to work up the motivation such as doing the dishes, sweeping the house, laundry, stretching, or organizing paperwork.

I'm still getting to know myself in those respects. Sometimes I'm not sure what is depression, generally lacking motivation, fatigue, lack of inspiration, laziness... etc.

I don't really have any school counselors because I'm doing school online. They offer complimentary life-coaching though. I have a therapist/counselor that I can call but he and I don't really click and I moved out of state about 2-3 months ago.

...idk I'm considering trying to find a mental health care facility and I might go for an in-depth psych evaluation, maybe even get tested for any learning disorders because I feel like some things are just harder than they should be for how much I want to do them.