I am trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I have read quite alot about PTSD and I wonder if I have it. I have thoughts that come to me and I can't get rid of them. Sometimes they are images of things that happened in the past. Many times I feel like the life is being sucked out of me when these thoughts come. I hate that feeling. Current events remind me of the earlier events and sometimes I get so afraid that I just freeze. I feel like I can't move or speak. I try and not think about these things - try to push them away but it isn't always possible. Although I have been better at it. Also, for a along time I felt nothing. I think I am beginning to thaw out though, as I find myself having feelings about things. I don't like it very much and am not sure what to do about it. I guess some of the feelings are alright but some I would rather not have.