I felt inspired yesterday and wrote something down to share with my T. Kind of chaotic but it was what I was feeling at the time. Thought I would share.

The Colors of Me

The burn of ire start to warm my body
My mind filling with rage quickly to inspire a torrent of hate
The anger like red flames lick at my soul
Burning... burning...
Lashing out with rage at everything
Enemies all around me, trying to destroy me

The embers die just as suddenly as they began
Leaving the cool blue of loneliness
Alone, scared and so very tired
Tears flow freely, warm salty
Blue as my pain they flow
Leaving streaks in the dust of my shattered soul

Wait, don't leave me in my hour of need!
I will get better...?
Someone else has lured you away.
Green jealousy rises and laughs at me
Grinning and spinning, pointing at me
Laughing
I push away fiercely
Turn and run

Blackness, emptiness
I sit alone, not daring to breathe
Not daring to show signs of life
My soul rent asunder
Help me, hate me, fear me

Temporary clarity, white and pure
All of me whole, my colors in harmony
For a while anyway
Scars both mental and physical
Adorn me like medals
I survived and I continue to survive
Although weaker I feel
Stronger I have become and will continue to be