I still feel ok. Just ok.

I am very tired of feeling like an invalid. I can't go anywhere or do anything, and it'll be 4 weeks before I can start using a cane. My surgery was 2 weeks tomorrow - my impatience is rearing its ugly head again. I want to be well now.

And because I lost my job last month, and because I'm on disability now and can't afford payments, my new (to me) car is being repossessed, and I find that I don't care. So much stuff has happened to me this year that it's just one more failure on my big list. The first time my car got repossessed in 2008, I was a basket case. Right now I just can't seem to care. This is serious. If things continue as they are right now, I'll never have another car.

Why don't I care? Overwhelm? Too much stuff going on? I have no clue.