lynn,
you need to know that what happened to your girlfriend was not your fault. She chose to stop taking her medications, and it was not your place nor your responsibility to force her to take them. Punishing yourself is pointless. Not only do you not deserve it, but you have already been there and you know that it is only a temporary fix.

Even after have gone without cutting for so long, doing it even once will likely restart the pattern again. Cutting is an addiction as you know, and just as an alcoholic cannot ever drink again, you cannot cut again without putting everything you have worked so hard to regain at risk.

What ever the reason for your girlfriend not wanting to talk to you, you can't make her. If she is going to have to go into assisted living, then the problem is serious, and trying to understand why she is acting the way she is towards you now will only drive you nuts. (no pun intended). She may not even know why. In highschool one of my friends suddenly dropped off the face of the earth. We had be growing apart for years, so I didn't realize she wasn't there for a long time. When I finally called her house, she refused to talk to me. Like you I was angry, confused and had no idea of what was going on.

Before you actually start cutting yourself, get back into therapy. You probably don't want to have to back track like that, but you need to find another way of coping with this new crisis. Don't let what is happening now destroy you. If you had a therapist you liked, call them ASAP. There may not be anything you can do for your girlfriend, time will tell, but that doesn't mean that you have to let it ruin your own life.

Sam2