I have been stable a while as well, but I struggle a lot with anxiety so that keeps life interesting. but I had a t I really respect ask me once, and he did it with total disbelief so it made such an impact on me,,,have you never experienced joy? and I had to answer him no. he was so incredulous. I have never forgot that moment. it was so very sad. he was so filled with disbelief. I have made it my mission to find joy. I haven't been very successful, but my motto is choose joy so I try to do things that make me happy. I signed up for a paint class which makes me feel good with my creations. I work to make choices in my life that make me happy. I am content with my life. I cant say it is filled with joy, but I try to savor the joyful moments when they do come along.