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Originally Posted by kaliope
have you never experienced joy? and I had to answer him no. he was so incredulous. I have never forgot that moment. it was so very sad. he was so filled with disbelief. I have made it my mission to find joy. I haven't been very successful, but my motto is choose joy so I try to do things that make me happy. I signed up for a paint class which makes me feel good with my creations. I work to make choices in my life that make me happy. I am content with my life. I cant say it is filled with joy, but I try to savor the joyful moments when they do come along.
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I can say that probably the only times I experienced joy was when my daughters were born.
As for crafts, like pottery, and needlework like crochet, knitting, and sewing, I did find flow when doing them. Flow isn't joy, but it took me out of myself and allowed me to find a place where my problems were all forgotten. I found this in my accounting work also. Unfortunately I now have severe arthritis in both hands and can't do my crafts anymore. And I can't work and I'm on disability. It's really hard to find flow now. I've read all my life, but unless the book is really really good, it only holds my interest for 10 minutes before I put it down and try to find something else to so.
Moments with my grandkids bring me fleeting joy. They're 5, 7, 9 and 11. They don't live nearby, so I don't see them very much. We had a great camping trip in early August, and there was a lot of joy that weekend.
Moments, I live for moments now.
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