HI there,
(((((STARS)))))
I'm sorry that you're having a rough time; It's been awhile since we've spoken and wanted to know you've been missed. Cherish those "small steps" and take pride in them. When you posted "I just wish I was invisible" my first thought was the movie "Big Daddy" when Adam Sandler put the sunglasses on the little boy so "no one would see him" so that's always an idea I guess. HA HA
Depression is something I am certain that I will continue to struggle with for the rest of my life. However, for everyone it is different. I cope with the bad days often with music, a nice soak in the tub, or watching a funny movie. ("Laughter is the best medicine") I can't seem to make the intense feelings of loneliness go away; I usually jump into the next relationship when that happens, but I'm trying to deal with reality before I get involved again...As far as the self-esteem issues, I recognized about 9 months ago (what I believe to be) the real reasons behind why I had such low self-esteem and recognizing "why" was an amazing discovery for me. Those thoughts seldom sneak back in my mind, but when they do, I'm able to quickly chase them away.
You're an incredibly intelligent young woman, you will succeed in what you're meant to do; hang in there, and enjoy the "small steps" and remember the successes and hold on when the journey is rough.
Peace,
Jon
PS. Happy Birthday!!! Can't remember what day, but knew it was soon, or just past.

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