I've tried to explain my situation and tried very hard to make it clear that something was wrong. As if not having any friends isn't sign enough - however, I know from experience that they will not take this well.

My mom cannot handle things like this, I fear that she would disown me and no longer speak to me.

My mom isn't good at dealing with problems. I'm the black sheep of this family and what she doesn't hear, she doesn't want to hear.