How aware are you? And how do you know that you are being aware?
I remember in highschool randomly thinking - "What have I been doing for the last few days?" I knew I had obviously been going to school, but I couldn't remember eating lunch, what I was doing after school, how I had been spending my time - had I watched tv? I don't think i've had a blantantly "unaware" moment like that since.
I know i'm not highly aware of much. I'm usually in my head and feel like i'm "in the present" but I realize once i'm away and think back that I actually wasn't very aware at all.
For instance, I tried to see just how aware I was by thinking - what color is the couch I sit on in therapy
every week for the last 7-8 (at the time) weeks? And I simply did not know. I have drawn patterns with my finger in this couch, rested on it, looked at the length, shared it with T one time (facing each other, where the couch would be very much part of my peripherals) - and I couldn't decide if it was blue, or brown? Maybe black?
Then it took about 2 more weeks to
remember to look at the couch - and it turns out the couch was actually grey plaid

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With the exception of dissociation - how aware is the average "normal" person?