Hello is anybody listening?? I'm new and I don't know exactly how to do this... I'm trying to find a new psychiatrist and therapist but it's slow going.

I can't stop thinking that people are out to harm me in some way or another. It can be as small as hurting my feelings, making me look stupid or as large as looking through my things "to have something on me". I've been diagnosed with PTSD and a few other things.
People have done horribly rotten things to me for a lot of my 34 years and I don't know how to let this go. I don't know how to decipher who is not trying to hurt me and who actually is. This is hard to keep to myself. I'm soooo tired from analyzing every word and the actions of people just to see if there out to get me. I seem to be always looking for any red flag. Does this make any kind of sense to anyone??? I'm an only child and I don't have any friends around anymore.
I did read about paranoid personality disorder and it sounds like a lot of the things I go through. Does anyone have a thought???
Thank you and God Bless,
tryingtofixme