Now being a 3 year member. I want to say what I wish I would have read when I first came to this page. It does get better with hard work... nearly 3 years now read my old posts from way back when. I was scared, depressed, Couldn't hardly leave my room, alcoholic, addict, panic attacks, self injury.... what a train wreck! I didn't know anything about myself. Just a scared kid. Victim of child abuse, bullying, and addiction. I want people to know it can get better! I am down to one fear that can cause a panic attack, and that's thinking about my own mortality, and I don't mind it, it motivates me to move forward. I have no more social anxiety, I can stand on my own two feet... I am sober, and pretty much stable as stable as I want my life to be... It took three years! AA and NA Meetings, 3 overdoses that sent me to the ER, 2 DWI's, Many different Therapist each one for several months at a time! a lot of courage, a lot of hard work at facing fears and mostly learning who I was and being okay with it. I must have seen 8 therapist... and in the very low points some meds... Today I can make and keep friends if I want too, I know longer need AA or NA I don't crave that stuff because I am okay being in my mind... I play with my dog, I build hot rods, I race cars, I am employed, I do whatever I want... I have come a long way from a kid who literally thought he was going to piss himself if someone stood behind him in the gas station... I don't know how it worked but I never stopped seeking help and I took bits and pieces from every therapist, from sponecers in AA and NA from friends when I finally made some, and from this website! read my posts I sound like a unstable person ready to give up or one that had given up.... I just wanted to say it gets better! Never stop seeking help and change! Thanks to everyone at PC who helped as well.. Three years guys it's been a long bumpy ride!
love you all so much and hugs to those just coming in. It does improve don't let anyone ever tell you it can't.... simply not true!