You're not annoying in the slightest, and I didn't say, think, or feel anything to that effect. I like reading your posts. EDIT: Oh, I see how you read it - I didn't mean it in a snide way, at all; I meant it literally and genuinely. You're very aware of the whole reassurance thing, which is awesome, and should hopefully help you, in the long-run.

OK, so nothing you did, ... just a way you felt? Did anything big happen in your life that would trigger these feelings/thoughts? I can't help but to think that something must have triggered all this. For me, it was the way I was raised by my mother, things she said and did, her reaction to things I did, lack of decent parenting, clumsy schooling, a lot of bullying, teachers ignoring my cries for help, and so on. I can go back and pin-point various things that could easily attribute to some of my problems, for example: my mother went crazy at me because I opened up (to her, it was "broken") a calculator to see how it works. Mother dearest took the broken calculator very much to heart, and made that very clear; she took it so much to heart, because she got me that calculator, but also my dad got me one - I chose to open up my mother's calculator, instead of my dad's. Honestly, I don't recall having any malicious intent, ... but then, I was just a child of no more than 10. I now get irrationally sentimental towards inanimate objects, and feel a lot of guilt for things I needn't. My mother was nucking futs, but it was subtle damage that gradually manifested over the years.